My Pre-Birthday Confusion

Have you ever been so confused that no matter how you make your decisions you are not simply satisfied with and by it?

I have, and it's not funny.

You see, in 4 days I'll be saying goodbye to my 25th year to welcome my 26th. I am actually tortured with having the day by myself or sharing it with some people, aside from my family. I've been skipping and getting away from my family every time it's my birthday to be honest hehehe~