3.07.2010

doubts on dancing and studying :( :( :(

"If there's a will, there's a way."

good evening folks. or should i say, good morning now. :D

gomenasai for leaving this page of mine for some weeks. the urge of typing down one's feelings have gone before but now it will revive again.

only few people close to me have known the fact that i am back into the dancefloor. i've been training again with the people i loved most for the event of the year: the 4th dance concert of mapua makati dancecom.

my friends knew it, especially the accounting buddies. but the people from my household didn't know even a tiny piece of information about it, more especially my parents. i just don't know why i am having a hard time to open it up to them that i want to participate in this year's dance concert. but it's not bad to assume that my 2 brothers who cohabit with me somehow have a glimpse of it through my facebook account statuses.

honestly, i don't have any problem with that set-up. if they knew it, so be it. they can't stop me anyways from dancing for i already paid my training fee (well, 2/3 of it are paid and i still have a balance) and i didn't ask the for any payment money. those came from my weekly allowance.

what i am troubled about is the training schedules. if you may ask me, i don't see any problem if we have them everyday. that is, if i was not an accountancy student who always has night classes from mondays to fridays from 6 to 9 in the evening. for a glimpse of my schedule this term (inwhich i wasn't able to post), here it is:



Monday
TuesdayWednesdayThursdayFridaySaturdaySunday
7:30 AM
9:00 AM
10:30 AM
12:00 PM
1:30 PMSS11
AC3
MKT311
SS11
AC3
MKT311
SS11
AC3
MKT311
3:00 PMACT170
M-T
MKT115
4:30 PMACT170
M-T
MKT115
6:00 PMACT131
M-T
MKT206
ACT170
M-T
MKT205
ACT131
M-T
MKT206
ACT131
M-T
MKT206
ACT170
M-T
MKT205
7:30 PMACT131
M-T
MKT206
ACT170
M-T
MKT205
ACT131
M-T
MKT206
ACT131
M-T
MKT206
ACT170
M-T
MKT205


pretty isn't it?

all my classes start early evening and ends late night. gosh. :|

that's why my colleagues from dancecom are not surprised if i arrived around 8-9 pm in the studio. they knew my schedule.

but i don't think that i have any benefits from coming to studio late and will just have some runs before heading home. i'm having a hard time memorizing the steps, and even executing them for lack of training time (for me) and at the same time, the academics were pressuring me on. that's why i can't focus much. :(

we all know that there's a saying (and i already posted it at the start of this blog). i myself know that if i want something badly, then no matter how hard it is, i surely can achieve it. i am not saying that i'm surrendering now in the midst of the battle. it's just that i was really confused on how to balance them both.

in two weeks time, both the concert and the final exams will come and go. i don't want to choose between the two but it is making me to do so.

i don't want to back out from the concert and at the same time neglect my studies. but if i continue going to studio after my school hours i might forget everything what our prof have taught. if i choose dancecom over my studies, i'm afraid to have a failing grade again which have caused my mom to be ill. :(

oh God please help me decide about it. i am really having a hard time. kudasai, Kamisama. :( :(

i hope the one reading me will give me some advices. i really don't know how to deal with this this time. i've open it up to some people and they even can't give out a nice advice.

i'll be very grateful to you if you do leave a comment about this one.

with that, domo arigattou gozaimasu. :')


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